Marieism

I’m BACK

Marie — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 06:05:55 +0000

Well, I don’t wanna clutter my baby blog with too much exercise stuff. I went back to the gym after 2.5 years, 2 babies, 10 kg to 12 kg over my regular weight and overall… I’m overweight, this is the heaviest I’ve EVER been and it’s damn hard to control the eating and even harder to find time to exercise. I’m gonna try and just start with the exercise and I hope (and pray) the rest will follow, especially after I’m done breastfeeding and don’t have any excuses any more .

Friday 13, 2012

Warm up (bike): 10 mins

Cardio (treadmill) :25 mins [20 mins – 2.4km)

Arm weight – can remember the names

I Miss Marie

Marie — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 09:43:12 +0000

Some days I look at an old photographs and I think this wasn’t THAT long ago and then I look for a date and OMG, it’s been 8 years. What? Happened? Some days I’m terrified of how fast I’m losing the old me and I’m just a worker & a mother and I struggle to fit everything else I love and know in. Some days I wanna sit for a bit and catch my breath. Some days I’m so happy with my life I’m giddy with joy. Some days, I resent it. Most days I know things will get better, there will be a balance… but I need hang on.

Missing the 90s

Marie — Tue, 05 Jul 2011 03:22:54 +0000

Watching MTV and I don’t know if it’s age or whatever but I really have to say that I miss 90′s music. I especially miss the alternative genre. Those were the days when you had to write music that meant something and the whole album wasn’t about getting laid and singing your name on repeat. Watching MTV these days depresses me, no wonder they screen reality crap… now that’s depressing!

Give Till It Hurts?

Marie — Thu, 20 Jan 2011 02:07:47 +0000

Had conversations with 2 different people about going the extra mile and getting nothing in return or worse – crap. I don’t know if it’s cos we expect more or people our age and older get lazy… but I’ve been disappointed a lot lately.

I think in general I rather not get presents then get rubbish, I have no idea what to do with and some people have kinda gotten the picture *whew* but in general I go the extra mile because I care, because I don’t want to disappoint and I’m learning that I can’t expect the same… so what do you do now? Do you become the same? Or do you keep doing what you’re going and get disappointed? I don’t know really…

Physically, I’ve learnt to cut back a bit, I want to be a good mother, wife, daughter, friend etc but I know I can’t be all, all the time. I’ve learnt and am learning to say, I’m sorry but I’m tired or I’m sorry but I can’t deal with it right now. My mantra was I Can Sleep When I’m Dead it’s changed, I know I need to rest but I can’t help waking up early to get stuff done, I’ve always been that way, early bird catches the worm and all that. But it is getting to the point that if people don’t bother, I feel I shouldn’t bother either.

iClueless

Marie — Wed, 12 Jan 2011 03:53:36 +0000

I got the new iPhone just before the new year, because the mess that was caused by Deza, I didn’t really get a chance to play with it till I got back to work. So far, I haven’t done much with it cept for download – a flash card thing for Ry, Angry Bird … seems for R, Camera+ and of course FB.

I fell alseep to Angry Birds, R’s more into it I think than I’ll ever be. Oh well.

Make/ Bake

Marie — Mon, 10 Jan 2011 08:05:51 +0000

Take Our Poll

*closed* going with Chocolate Cheese Brownie because I don’t think I’ll have enough time to do a tart. I’ll have that at my next ‘do’.

I Miss…

Marie — Tue, 23 Nov 2010 03:19:29 +0000

I miss… in no particular order

1. Jumping

2. Running

3. Wakeboarding

4. Drinking a cup of coffee, a Coke Zero and a Teh Ping less sugar, a Rootbeer Float in a single day

5. Just shopping and wasting time in Orchard Road

6. Swimming with my dogs

7. Long pointless conversations on the phone

8. Dancing to loud music aka clubbing

9. Drinking … ok this one not so much cos I do still indulge but control is key and it sucks when someone pours me something yummy and I have to stop at a glass

10. Doing nothing and not feeling like shit about it

Anyhoo

Marie — Fri, 29 Oct 2010 05:44:18 +0000

I know not one really cares and hardly anyone visits this site but I managed to import all my old post from my msn spaces website to wordpress. I’m so happy.

Can you imagine I’ve been blogging since 1999!! My first blog was on Geocities!! You’d have 9MB of space and that’s it, so every month I’d have to make room and if you didn’t kinda understand html your site would kinda suck. Now things are wayyyy easier these days.

Was reading some entries from 2005 and whoa the difference 5 years makes. I do kinda miss my financial and travel freedom, those were the days I could go on a trip to Bangkok and my account would barely take a hit. Reno loans, Ry’s school, daycare, helper etc etc… have replace those things. So I’m glad I got to travel a little, party some and experience all the heartache, weirdos, disappointments etc etc which have made my history interesting, worth telling and made me who I am today. So one day when Rylen comes back sloshed and bitching about men and how fucked up they are or how life sucks, I know that it does get better… heck, it gets down right wonderful.

Up Yours!!

Marie — Mon, 04 Oct 2010 07:06:46 +0000

I wanna scream. I don’t have a car, I don’t drive and I don’t wanna waste my husband’s time and because I claim 40 bucks on transport, I don’t get to claim the day off for working a whole bloody day on Sunday. My time, my worth is not even worth a day, not even half a day and cab ride…. REALLY REALLY….

fucking kidding me. keep it up please why don’t you.

Messed up Lungs

Marie — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 04:14:28 +0000

In May I got pretty sick, all of us did. I blame Mariana. She hardly gets sick so I reckon that the virus that finally brought her to her knees was a particularly bad strain. I got it really bad, 5 visits to the doctors, Allen had 3 visits and Rylen 2 visits. My lungs turned to shite and I now have asthma (again).

Being pregnant again and getting a bad cough this round from the husband means I can’t use the inhaler as often as I like/need. I use it only if I’ve spent more than half a day struggling to breath easily and can’t take it any more. Sometimes it goes away you see and other times I really need it.

Today I ran for the bus and I was winded. It’s not a fun feeling… I know know how MH feels after 15 mins on the cross trainer. I’m still going to try going for a jog this weekend and I really can’t deal with it then, I’ll sign up for the gym on campus and give up 2 lunches a week to try and not turn into a lard ass. My arms really are starting to gross me out as well and I really miss my collarbone.

x-posted.