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9/11 September 11, 2008

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This day in 2001, I was watching what I thought was a movie then my eyes shifted and I saw CNA (Channel News Asia)… and thought … oh shit… yelled for my Mom and Dad to watch and called my office in NY, no one answered the phone, cos no one comes in till around 10am. Thank god, we were all slackers.


She Provoked Me so I Hit, I Hit & I Hit August 18, 2008

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Sigh.. sometimes people disappoint and the only thing you can do is to be there always, hope he doesn’t kill her and that maybe she’ll be that 1% that never gets hit again. The fact that he’s excuse is that she provoked him….
I dunno lah, I know I can provoke anger like no other but D never laid a finger on me, my darling husband has never even come close and when my Dad hit me… I didn’t speak to him for a week till he apologised and bought me loads of stuff (yes, I’m shallow like that). To move back after a half fuck sorry and terrible lame ass excuse is just so weak I wanna smack some sense into her too! But… I’m there for you but I never wanna see him again, just promise you do that one thing I asked you to do… go see someone about your issues.
I know sometimes it’s always easier said than done but … she just gave in so easily. Sigh.

Aims February 22, 2008

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Sucks feeling numb. The aim this weekend is to chill but I have to work tmr. Blah.
1. More sleep ~done
2. Pump w Ann ~done
3. Hang with my parents for more than just an hour ~done
4. Bring Stomper out ~done
5. Bake (I know, fat hope) ~as usual, no time to tan.
And now for random photos of my demon puppy.

Dance With Me One More Time February 12, 2008

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I’m sooo tireed it’s not normal.
Today, I’ll finally be able to attend a mass for my Nan, managed to get an hour off work. My Mom was telling me about a dream she had, my Nan was in her 60s (she was still hot then) and dancing and laughing and looking beautiful and then my Mom asked ‘is that you?’ and she smiled….sounds like something she’d do. 2 weeks ago a huge pretty moth flew into R’s place, I was like..don’t hurt it, don’t hurt it…. I dunno, every time someone close dies a moth appears shortly, maybe it’s just me being silly.
Anyways, it made me think about death and how I’d want to go…..
1. Quickly
2. No wake, a nice mass where everyone wears something pink
3. White roses only and if possible a black coffin (it’s slimming okay… and a lil goth)
4. Ashes scattered in the sea
5. It has to end with a drinking session where everyone talks about me ahaha… you know how cool I was, how bitchy, grumpy, annoying, funny etc. Drink many shots for me, get a lil hung over and just carry on living life to the fullest.
There you go, my living will. Someone better remember this.

Sick and Tired January 23, 2008

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So I’ve been on a course and I’ve been sick, what I thought was a bad cold turned into a cough and because I don’t have time to take another day of medical leave, I’m here in the office. There’s so much to do and we’re sooo under-staffed. I just don’t understand why the bosses haven’t hired someone yet (it’s been a YEAR). It’s not fair to put this much stress on people!! I have so much crap to do, I don’t even know where to start!! Whatever.
Looks like the gym is gonna be out for me till the weekend. Too sick today, gotta get stuff done tmr and on Friday, 27 Dresses with the ‘ladies.
Cycle, Warm Up:: 15 mins
Inner and Outer Thighs :: 30reps x 3sets x 33
Thigh :: 15reps x 3sets x 19
Side Twisty Thingy:: 15 reps x 3sets x 27.5
Situps:: 100

NYE and Bye Nanny January 2, 2008

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For the first time in a long time, I had a quiet NYE… and it was a good thing too, I rang my Mom in Perth at around 8ish, no idea why but I didn’t wanna wait for midnight, 5 mins later, she rang back and told me my Nanny passed away while we were on the phone. It hasn’t been easy, I’m not there and I know she’s been ill and she’s over 90 but it’s the strangest thing… I get flashes of memories; the things she liked to wear, how I loved looking at her stuff, the way she snored (it’d keep me awake at night but every time she stopped, I’d check if she was still alive… between the ages of 9 – 11), Christmas time with her and my mom making tarts and sugee cake, how her wedding ring used to clink when she washed the dishes, her patchwork blanket I used to take over when she spent nights at my cousin’s place, her plants and flowers, the way she’d call my name, the mole she had on her forehead which fell off when she kept rubbing aloe on it… (freaked me out), R flirting with her on the phone (they’ve never met), how she’d never push or nag…she’d just listen. I hate that I’m gonna miss our very short phone calls, that I’ll never hear her voice again. Everyone loved her, I loved her and I’m gonna miss her so much.

Me in my Nan’s arms
Spent the 1 Jan just lying in bed and watching 24. Damn, the show is addictive but it helps get my mind off things… I wanna go home now and watch the rest of it. Hmph.

Still Hoping October 4, 2007

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My Nan’s not doing too well so… yeah.
Angie’s grandma also just passed-on yesterday. RIP.
Had fun with ‘ma bitches’ last night, headed over to Oriental to Axis Bar for mojitos and tapas. One of the best mojitos I’ve had. By 9pm, I was tipsy and red, we loaded up on the hand lotion… love the hand lotion at Oriental (I must admit, it was part of the reason I chose the location) walked off the buzz, more laughs along the way. I’m sure if we weren’t so happily high we wouldn’t have found crossing the road quite so funny.

Bored and I just wanna go Hooooommmmeeee September 21, 2007

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Pride’s my deadly sin August 15, 2007

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The distance between
Wanting to reach out
Say I’m sorry
Pride got in the way
Turned over and faced the emptiness 

Slump July 25, 2007

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Boy am I sleepy today.
I was so tired yesterday (my eyes are anyways) but made it to the gym. Pushed myself on the bike and run, annoyed R while doing weights and grumbled during my sit-ups. ahaha. No food at the foodcourt nearby cos it was nearly 10-ish, headed to Beach Road and pushed past the satanic yummy Indian food…grumble grumble….R found a lone soupy noodle stall… blah. The dude has willpower, darn it.
Today I have another full day ahead, took the PM off to get my tri pack, get my ass over to Noel’s to change my tires to slicks and swim, cycle home, change, go watch The Simpsons (I think) or I might just sleep.
Cycle :: 11km, 20mins, 70 cals (only,damn sad)
Arms :: Bi pull-ups & triPull-downs :: 10 repsx3 set each (smallest weights possible)
Abs :: Twister :: 15 x 2 sets & 100 situps & 60 bended leg lifts & 1 plank ahahaha 
Run:: 2 km, 16mins, 150 cals
I’m off, toodles!